I have come to accept the feeling of not knowing where I am going. And I have trained myself to love it. Because it is only when we are suspended in mid-air with no landing in sight, that we force our wings to unravel and alas begin our flight. And as we fly, we still may not know where we are going to. But the miracle is in the unfolding of the wings. You may not know where you're going, but you know that so long as you spread your wings, the winds will carry you.

― C. JoyBell C.

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Hey what's up, it's been a while  

Talking 'bout it's not my style 

Thought I'd see what's up 

While I'm lighting up
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Hey !!

That was the opening lines from zayn's song "Like I Would" , check him out !
Wazzap peopleeeee
Its me im back yea yea yea yeaaaaaaa !!
So what am i gonna write today? i dont freaking know !
On the top of my mind, i wanna talk about growing up
Okay then
Here we go

*zoom in*

*zoom out*

*wth*

As you guys know, i'll be turning 21 this year, i'm gonna be legal ! be prepared girls !
But some people say that i still act like a kinder.
This thing bothers me.
It has been bothering me for quite sometimes now.
Will i ever act like a grown up? Because to be honest, i want to.
I know it's still far but when i'm a husband, i want to be the kind to protect the family.
When i have a girl, i want her to believe in me and trust me.
Right now, i really don't see that in me.
All i see is this.. big kid who knows how to drive.... that's it.
Sometimes i hate myself when i act like a 3 years old, but that's in my nature.
Why the hell is it so hard to act like an adult or at least a freaking teenager.
When i was 17, i used to think " No, i never want to grow up. "

Well, be careful what you wish for, it might come true.
It did come true to me.
I'm still the same me from 4 years ago.
People kept telling me to never change, but is it really a good thing ? Not growing up?
But to hell with that,
I will try my best to grow up.
I wanna be a man, not a boy.
I want to be the guy, that everyone refers as " The Guy " Ya know what i'm sayin? No? okay then...
Well i've been bubbling for too long, this post doesnt even make sense anymore...
It's time for me to sleep i guess
Tchau ciaooo !

If you have anything to ask catch me on ask here --> MINE

~

I know it was never easy.

It is still hard sometimes.

And i know there will be times where it gets harder.

But baby,

I want to keep you in my life as long as possible.

No, not forever.

I can't promise any forever.

But i can promise that i'll take care of you as long as possible.

Seeing you smile is one thing,

But knowing that i'm the reason makes me happy.

Not that i wasn't happy, i was.

But you just make me happier than i already was.

On the other hand, seeing  you sad is heartbreaking.

Knowing that i'm the one who makes you sad or angry, kills me.

Sorry if i ever did things that make you mad unintentionally.

Sorry for keep saying sorry.

I've been waiting for this to happen for God-knows-how long.

I don't wanna mess this up.

These moments are precious to me.

I really wanna cherish every single one of them.


Hey guess what ?

7 Billion smiles, but yours is my favorite.

7 Billion pairs of hands, but yours are the only ones that i love to hold.

7 Billion pairs of eyes, but yours are the only ones that shine when i see them.

Baby,our  journey will be a hard one,

We both know how hard it is to imagine our future together.

But we should just let life surprise us, right ?

Not taking each other for granted would be the first step.

For now, being with you feels great.

And i know it will just get better over time.

Today, i love you more than yesterday.

And tomorrow, i'm sure i'll love you greater than today.

-Fishy-

A song speaks more than words

If you happen to open this blog

Please listen carefully to this song

Iye sok romantis

Tapi beneran

OYE ~

Tsup fellas ?

Galau mele kayaknya dari kemaren ya?
Mungkin sudah waktunya untuk non-galau post? hahaha

Jadi, ketika ngepost,saya gapernah punya topik... serius
I'm just gonna write what's on my mind and..that's it, okay?
Jadi ya...maaf kalo misal banyak yang aneh2 dan gajelas...
Karena...isi otak saya emang agak kurang jelas (?)

Anyways
Gimana? Sehat?
Saya sejauh ini sehat, beberapa kali sakit sih tapi paling sering sakit gigi
Sebelum berangkat ke Brazil saya udah bolong banyak,...12 kalo gak salah
banyak? iya banyak tapi itu bolong kecil2
pas di Brazil gapernah sekalipun ada yg namanya sakit gigi dalam setaun itu, i rarely got sick there
kenapa ya? airnya lebih bersih po? ato hatinya lebih bersih? ea
mantap anyonk

Back to the topic

ya, jadi gigi saya sakit, pernah waktu itu sakit banget, sampe seminggu ada kayaknya, seumur2 baru sekali yang namanya sakit gigi sampe pipi bengkak, bener2 baru sekali... jadi kayak.. chipmunk.
tapi cuma pipi sebelah kiri sih..
nah kan sakit tuh, terus ada lah pake obat penghilang rasa sakit, pertama minum 1..ga kerasa..2..ga kerasa..3 juga ga kerasa.......
akhirnya minum....kalo gak 7 , 8 , gainget pastinya
ya


rasa sakit giginya ilang


betul

tapi malem2 pas mau tidur ya itu..
Overdosis

badan kejang2
keringet dingin
otot kenceng semua
sudah tidak paham lagi....

rasanya bener2 kayak mau mati
udah mau Line beberapa orang tersayang cuma untuk bilang "Kalo aku mati, tolong diinget ya aku sayang sama kalian"
hampir
tapi dipikir2 , kalo saya gak mati....? cuma bakal malu2in..
jadi ya mending diem aja, lagian saking kejangnya gabisa pegang hape juga waktu itu....

tapi ternyata saya gak mati yey !
masi hidup sekarang
masi bisa ngepost di blog yang sudah lama terabaikan ini

tapi pengalaan Overdosis itu memang sungguh berkesana
pokoknya, jangan sekalipun minum obat lebih dari anjuran
kelebihan 1 tablet saja sudah bahaya
apalagi 6?

Thanks for being the Claire to my Phil :)

No words needed

You already know what it means

God, has the perfect timing,for everything.
Literally everything.

That's why you do not need to worry about anything.
Problems will be solved somehow.
Just do your part, and He will take care of anything else.

Things will be all right.
Just be grateful of what you're having now.
Seize your day, seize your moment.
Do not worry about the future, stop thinking about the past.
Live for today.

Carpe diem baby :)

One of those galau nights.

Hey !

Haven't posted anything for the last couple of years!

Gosh this blog really need to be updated..but nobody opens it anyway hahaha

So, how have you guys been doing ? I've been doing great myself, lots of things happened in the past couple of years.

I'm a student at Gadjah Mada University now, taking the Tourism department.

Do i still dance? i still do, not as much as i used to but yeah i still dance.

I play the guitar too now, am i awesome or what?

So,

I wanna introduce you to someone.

She's a friend of mine, a really nice girl, smart, beautiful,everything a guy could ever dream of.

We study in the same class, she's my singer ( The Unstable Duo, check us out! )

Well, why do i need to introduce her to you guys?

Because she is awesome

She is everything that i'm not.

Have to be a little lame here... but she completes me.

She makes me see these little things about life that i didn't realize before.

She makes me understand that life, is not THAT simple.

She plans her future, i plan where i want to eat tomorrow.

She overthinks things, i rarely think.

I'm a picky eater, she eats anything that's edible.

I'm a mess, she's an organized person.

That's just how different we are.

But despite all the differences, we have the same way of thinking, with different POVs.

When i say same way of thinking, we LITERALLY have the same thoughts. Sometimes i think we don't need to talk anymore, we just need to look each other in the eyes and nod if we agree to something. Cute? Well it is cute the first times it happened, but now it's kinda creeping me out (JK , i love this rare connection we have <3 3="" div="">

Well i don't know what else to say.

I'm just grateful she's in my life.

I'm thankful for her.

One of the greatest things that ever happened to me.

If one day you're reading this,

Thank You for existing in my life,

Thank You for completing me,

Thank You for dealing with stupid shits i say.

and Thank You...for holding me when i feel low.

I Love You, V :)

p.s. : Sorry this was the result of me letting that "other" Garry wrote.

-Fishy-

Some random post.

Haloo , well , waktu nulis ini gw lagi senggang banget sekarang bener2 nganggur :| , huahahhha,
eniweiiii, how's your life guuys ? mine's been good lately :D , mungkin emang karena cuacanya udah mulai enak dan seger gitu,akhir2 ini semangat banget kalo ada kegiatan , dan kemaren gw maen voli ngewakilin sekolah gw, JUARA 1 ! woohoo ! *self five* , akhir2 ini semangat membara2 gitu, tapi tetep aja ada yang bikin emosi , dompet gw ketinggalan di curitiba -_- ,  yaa gitu sih gapenting tapi :D
And Braziiil , how's braziiil ? Brazil is BE A U TIFUL !! as meninas ? sim as meninas tambem, mas minha namorada o melhor do que elas ;) .

And here's the deal, when you leave your home country for a long time, you suddenly understand how beautiful your home country is.. rasa nasionalisme melunjak tinggi, rasanya bangga banget tinggal di tanah air kita , dan makanan, makanan2 murah pinggir jalan Indonesia yang dulu kayak makanan biasa buat saya.. sekarang jadi kerasa spesial banget, bayangin 3 bulan gak makan angkringan, gak makan di burjonan, pelajar jogja mana sih  yang ga kangen makan di gituan :" , tapi yaudah sih waktu balik harus makan yang banyyak berartiii :3

Ahh and one more !! ada berita sukacita !! Priscilla Paul (host sist gw) bakalan nikah bulan november :D , Parabens priscilla !! :D

ahh , sekarang saya mau diajak dinner diluar kota nih :3 (padahal kotanya cuma kayak jogja-solo) so, ini dulu yg bisa gw share sekarang, tchau pessoas ! Eu amo voces ;)

Holla!!

Hello guys :D its been awhile since my last post :D hahahah
i miss you guys :*
well, bye :D